Today is a new day, a new year, a new beginning. It’s a time when we set goals, make resolutions, and yes even reflect on the past.
As a student of life, I have always believed we live in the hear and now. Edna Mode said it best when she said “I never look back, darling. It distracts from the now.” I believe in being present in the moment is key. When you look back it can cause you to stumble and fall.
So does that mean the past is not important? No, it is very important our past makes us who we are. It shapes and models us but it does not define us.
Finding Joy And Releasing The Pain
Releasing the pain
This year has taught me some very valuable life lessons.
It taught me that to grow you will have to go through some growing pains. These growing pains will bring heartbreak, they can and most likely will shatter the illusion you have of people and they most certainly will show you your true friends and those who truly love you.
I learned this year that people can be cruel. That someone you call a friend and trust can tear your heart out and leave you bleeding. This year showed me people are not always who they claim to be. That much like the serpent in the garden of Eden who lured Eve with sweetness to bite the apple, someone lured me in with their kindness. I like Eve made a mistake trusting them and turning myself inside out for them only to be left heartbroken when I did not live up to their vision of who I should be. At that moment I learned how cruel someone could be. My heart was shattered by their attitude, their words, and their ability to turn the situation around so that they came out looking like the victim.
This realization really shook my foundation and left me broken and added to the darkness I was already feeling with the long health battle I had been fighting, the pandemic and consistent fear I had every time my son and husband left for work, and the financial struggles I was having. It got really dark and it took the kindness of a true friend to pull me out.
In the end, I chose myself, my joy, and my peace over their drama. With the help of Victoria over at Simply Today Life I am beginning to see colors bloom again.
With everything that happened this year from a fatal health issue that I prayed I would never have to fight again. Financial struggles that left me making choices I never thought I would, A pandemic left us all wondering what would happen and the knowledge that someone I trusted could be so cruel I could have crumbled into a pile of broken pieces. In truth, no one would have blamed me if I had.
However, I have chosen to forgive, to let go, and to find my joy and my peace. Forgiving the person who hurt me isn’t about them it’s about me finding joy and peace in my life. Going through everything I have in 2020 did not leave me broken it left me scarred but it taught me a valuable lesson. I am enough, I am worthy of love and true friendship and I can grow from this adversity. I may be scarred and bruised but I am also brave and beautiful and this is who I am. A strong, loving, kind, and forgiving person who chooses joy, love, and peace over pain.
I am choosing to find joy in the sadness, light in the darkness, and beauty in the broken. Letting go means I can move forward into the life that is meant to be.
Word of The Year
I have been thinking hard about this years word and the one that I keep coming back to is nourish. With everything I went through I realize what I need now is true nourishment for my mind, body and spirit. I need to take the time to give my body body the healthy nourishment it needs to regain my strength. I need to nourish my mind with positivity, self worth and self love.
More importantly I need to nourish my spirit with all things good. To rebuild my sense of trust, to surround myself with people who are loving, kind and who are willy to call me out when they see me falling into negative ways.
This year I am focused on healing adn nourishing myself with all things good.
What is your word of the year?
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